thoughts for the week
17 October, 2013
-I've been worrying a lot about dying lately. Actually, I've always worried about it - since I was a kid - but this week especially, it has lit a candle in my brain as soon as the lights go out. I was eavesdropping on a conversation between two older ladies this morning before yoga class and one of them was talking about how her husband had just retired, and because he was a man of many interests, she still doesn't get to spend much time with him. She said "We're going to be dead in 20 years, I'd like to enjoy him for awhile before that happens!" I was quite shocked by the statement because of her tone - it was so matter-of-factish, like it's just something we do. I wonder when that mindset will take over and the anxiety surrounding it will subside for me.
-I don't know what it is about my personality, but I have absolutely no problem making friends with guys, however girls are a different story. I wish I could explain this, but it's truly some sort of phenomenon. I want to say that girls don't like me, but we all know that would be a fallacy of composition, so I'll just say that I wish my internet girlfriends lived nearby because I totally got the side eye from one of my yoga teachers the other day who ran into me while I was having a meet up with a dad friend from E's school. Why is it such a social taboo for guys and girls to have friends of the opposite sex outside of their relationships?
-This week has been all about cooler weather, open windows, new music, and baseball (go red sox!) playoffs. So much perfection, except for the fact that my kid has been a total shit, which I've been able to overlook because this is my favorite time of year and I refuse to let her ruin every aspect of my life. (I kid!)
-What are you guys doing this weekend? We're going to a friends for a BBQ tomorrow nite, and then celebrating Emma's 5th (FIFTH! What the fuck, even?!) birthday on Sunday with Bryan's parents and my brother. I'm still not ready for the whole inviting her friends over for a party type thing, so I'm sending her to school with cookies on her actual birthday in an attempt to make myself feel like less of a shitty parent.
That's all I got.. what's been on your mind this week?